I Hope You Know

Dear Noah,

I am missing you today, but that is nothing new. Everything reminds me of you. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. As I type this letter, my eyes fill up with tears because I would do anything to hold you and kiss your chubby cheeks again. I can say that none of my kids have ever lacked when it comes to love, hugs, and kisses.

I look for your signs all the time. Tonight I saw the snow glistening and I wondered if your wings glisten like that. I wonder why you were chosen to become an Angel so soon. It just reminds me of what one person told me at your wake: "Heaven needs little angels too". I don't know why our baby boy, but I bet you make a beatiful angel. You were perfect in every way.

Losing you taught me just how precious life is. I hope you know just how much you are loved and how much you are missed. I hope you know that our family will forever be incomplete without you here with us. I hope you know that you are in my thoughts all day, every day. I hope you know that as I snuggle with Madelyn and Josiah, I wonder what it would be like to have you with us too. I hope you know that we look forward to the day that we meet up with you again.

I love you to the moon and back sweet baby boy. Watch over us and send us signs.

Love,
Mommy